birthdays

the big two-oh

EXAMMSS

the library is completely packed, and while i find myself constantly making my way to a the 4th floor, I tend to wonder what the hell we are actually doing here....Its an incredible sight really, seeing everyone in an awkward harmony... trying their best to make this semester count and trying their best to just make it through the week..Hopefully next semester will bring a change that we all are really looking for, or maybe it will happen to not change at all. Maybe we need to feel some sort of structure, that will help give us more motivation.... All I know is that I cant wait to get a way from Richmond..so i can remind myself why i love it so much..hopefully break will bring some sort of new clarity....who knowsss but what i do know is that I'm going to start looking at the brighter side of things..because fuck it..things can only get better...from fights to falling off balcony's...this years been intense, overwhelming, and at times too difficult...but maybe its what i needed to make next year better...who knows..


pictures will be up nextttt post

december is here! which means fall has gone and left.

it also means that this fall semester is almost over!

as lydia has mentioned a lot has happened.

i took this picture one random day in october when i was

walking back to my apartment from class. lucky i had my camera

because literally the next two days all the leaves on the pavements

quickly turned brittle and crisp. now all the leaves are gone and this year

is almost over which means ill be 20 soon!

SOOO

So much has happened this year already..that im not sure i can even keep up animore...Halloween was my birthday and of coursseee a celebration was in order...but of course i found myself passing out at 12 15. I didnt mind that too much..but what i did mind was the fact that someone puked on my floorr..NOT COOL...Other than that, the night went pretty well..On another note though, about a month a go a VCU deck collapsed sending myself and at least 21 other people to the hospital...It was probably one of the most scariest things i have ever experienced...I have never experienced that sense of helplessness...It may sound dumb but your life does kinda flash before your eyes, not in a sense that you look back to certain memories..or even certain people...It's like all you see is what you have right now..and that it could be lost at any second...its like your mind imagines the worst...and the fact that you are completely helpless, only leaves you to freak out more..Thankfully I ended up alright...I had a Phneumo Thorax..which is an air bubble that goes through your lungs..getting trapped in the middle of your chest..I left after the weekend...Everyone has been extremely supportive..which i really appreciate so muchh...and i will be posting pictures of my birthday soon...till thannnnn